thoughts about ish
So I really don’t know what to say anymore. About anything. Life, people, school, boys… Well nothing that I really want to put on here. Maybe one day I’ll be able to get a little more into things but right now I’m still trying to get to know what kind of blog writer I’ll be.
Am I going to do celeb gossip? Probably not. Am I only going to write about me? Maybe, that’s most likely possible. The thing I hate hearing come out of other people’s mouths is “Good things come to those who wait.” Well what about those people who do wait? How long are we supposed to wait til something good actually happens. Because in the past four years everything around me seems to be getting worse and worse. Not only in the family, but with my friends. I honestly don’t really trust anyone anymore. Mainly because I know for a fact that anyone I tell something to will most likely go tell someone else. It’s happened to me too much this year and I can’t cant handle it anymore. I really dont ever want to talk to anyone. There are people who I constantly have to watch what I say because I don’t know who they’re going to go tell. I guess everyone is like that, but it’s been getting worse and worse for me. Nothing good has come to me. People keep dying, families keep falling apart, I keep wanting things I can’t have. Nothing good comes from waiting, but I’m not going to go out there start changing things. I’m going to let things come to me, because every time I go after something someone else gets it. Or everything just falls through. And I’m sick of it. I’m sick of waiting, but I’m sick of not getting the things I go after. This is a lose-lose situation for me. Nothing is making sense anymore. I can’t go to school because all anyone ever talks about is God or Twilight. I don’t have anyone to ever hang out with so weekends are always a bust for me. And I don’t have a job so that doesn’t get me something to do. Lose-lose. Like I said in the title. I don’t know. Also remember, I’m Jackie and I dont know crap. Check back every day, there will most likely be a new post up by ten o’clock.
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