thoughts about ish
Instead of only talking about how my day was today, I’m going to talk about what’s been really bugging me.
On my myspace I say “I realize something new everyday.” Now this isn’t something that I’ve only realized today, but for the past few months or so. It’s how much people suck and how everyone has conformed to be exactly like each other. I’m not saying that I’m different than everyone else; I do have qualities in my personality that are like other people’s personalities. However, I take that quality and I make it my own. Everyone else is just the same. I can’t take it anymore. I used to think that the people I talk to everyone didn’t care about what other people thought. I didn’t think that they really valued their opinions. But the past few months tell me otherwise. I’ve always known that people are mean, but I didn’t know that they were all mean in the same way. Well, I guess that’s not the complete truth, but it’s close. Everyone gets mad about the little things. I know I’m stubborn and I used to fight with everyone about anything, but every since my birthday I’ve chilled out. I’ve become a little more understanding towards people and I don’t have the energy to fight with people. After awhile it gets to be boring and lame. But that doesn’t stop people from getting mad at me for the little things. I don’t even have to do anything, and that’s exactly what sets people off, not doing something for them. I really can’t do it anymore. I can’t last that long with people always saying I’m at fault. I have my flaws and I do things wrong, but not everything is my fault. So what I’ve been doing for the past few months is just ignoring people when they decide to stop talking to me. I’m sick of being treated like crap for no reason and I refuse to put up with it anymore. I also tell people that I don’t have friends, which is not a complete lie. The only people I ever hang out with anymore are my dad, Melany, Katelyn, Sam, Bo and their friends. However, I don’t care anymore. I like hanging out with all of them. They’re all fun people, and they don’t have short tempers. I know I don’t see any of them on a daily basis besides Dad and Katelyn, but they’re probably the best people to be around. They’re all pretty much family. They may be all I have right now, but they make life worth living for. Katelyn turned into the reason I go to school when Konnor left and when she was going through tough times. Sam and Bo are my favorite people to hang out with when I want to get out of the house. Melany is my best friend and I will always need her. Dad, though we fight, is my best friend; I tell him everything and he takes care of me whether I want him to or not. I don’t tell anyone half as much of what I tell them. In other news, today was okay. All my classes went fine; I slept in lunch. After school sucked. Practice was boring and I didn’t even talk to anyone for two hours. It was the weirdest experience ever. Though there are some people who would think it totally normal for me to not be talking. Then me and dad ordered chinese food, delicious. We’ve been craving it for so long. Then on CSI some guy got his tongue split. I’m really not sure what’s its called, but like a snake, it was pretty gross. That was the day. It was not fun. And I definitely have to reconsider a few things over the summer. Keep on reading and remember: I’m Jackie and I don’t know crap.
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I really cannot dance, like at all. For guard the beginning of Toxic is dance, it’s only about 28 seconds long, and I’m horrible at it. I’ve known since I started that I was not very good at dancing, but I always thought that it would improve, apparently it’s only gotten worse. I’m probably just going to have to make up the dance myself and then come in amazingly at the flag parts.
But the rest of the day that comes before that really wasn’t interesting… Me and Katelyn are working on a lyrics project for English together. We did “Wheel of Fortune” Review for the AP test. We had a lab in chemistry. And I’ve spent the two hours that I’ve been home pretty much on the computer. I’ve been told twice in the past two days that my About Me on myspace is really good. I don’t think anyone has ever said that to me. I like it. At lunch, we were talking about how some people don’t believe when you them that you aren’t dating anyone. Pretty much everyone I say that to looks at me with disbelief on their faces. Yes, it’s true, I don’t have a boyfriend; no, I cannot tell you why because I have no idea. But that was my day. Keep checking, leave comments and remember : I’m Jackie and I don’t know crap. Today was not that interesting, well the bulk of the school day anyway. We played kickball outside in gym and I thought my allergies were going to kill me. I hate gym class. Then all the other classes are getting to be really boring, except for History. In History we’re still learning about the Holocaust. Now, I don’t think that the Holocaust or World War 2 is cool in anyway, but it’s my favorite topic in history classes. To me, it’s the most important part of history for everyone. However, that’s just my opinion and there are stupid people out there (and also attending Valley Forge High School) who believe that it’s cool and the greatest thing ever. Well, if it’s the greatest thing ever, then why aren’t you wishing that you were one of the people being killed in this genocide? I mean if it’s really that cool, then why don’t you just wish you were there. Oh and in Chemistry I have a 102.3%. Yes!
After school we started clinics for a new guard season. It was weird without Katelyn, and everyone kept asking about her. I felt like punching a wall. It’s torture enough that she’s not there, there’s really no need to keep asking about her. You already know the reasons why she’s not doing it; they aren’t going to change. I help one of the freshmen. She was really nice. And after really finding ways to explain everything I think she got it. It was only her first day, so we’ve got to cut her some slack. She’ll get it and I think with some practice she’ll be really good. The day also started to slow down after practice was over, it was the weirdest experience ever. And finally, new countdowns are starting to begin. For example, the first day of summer is in three days; and I’m not talking about the season. I’m talking about Summer Movie Season. Yes that’s right, and it starts with X-Men Origins: Wolverine. There’s only ten days until Star Trek comes out. Two months and sixteen days until Harry Potter comes out with it’s PG rating. Three and a half months until Final Destination 4 in 3D. And a whole mess of others. This summer is going to be the best movie summer in a while, and you better bet your bottoms that I’ll be there. Be ready for some reviews. Sure, my life isn’t all that fantastic, but I’m living it the way I want. Keep checking, and remember I’m Jackie and I don’t know crap. |
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