As the Summer Ends

This summer has been a quiet one.  Definitely not like last summer at all.  Last summer held all the excitement of moving away to school after high school.  This summer just has me working and cleaning (sort of) and not really doing anything.
What I have done this summer, besides go to Marc’s every day, is reflect on the past few months.  The year is only about ¾ of the way over and I feel like so much has happened: I’ve lost friends, found old ones, and made so many new ones.  It’s hard having lost who I have because we had our lives planned out together, but with college comes change: good and bad.  I love who I have reconnected with.  I have a best friend who might live three hours away, but I know I can go to her for anything.  And, of course, through Marc’s I have made new friends and have incredible people in my life. These people are a group of friends that I can see loving and having around, no matter what happens to me when I go back to school.
I lost my best friend this year. I’m not going to say anything bad about her.  There’s no point. She’s gone. I won’t get her back.  I know I’m better off without her though. This was the hardest change of the year. But I watched as things were said about me on Twitter for months, hoping that maybe something would change, it would go back to how it was before New Year’s.  I slowly realized that what was happened was normal; things change when you go to college.  Well, to be specific, people change.  And I already addressed how people change over years of knowing them in January. The last few months have been hard because we were inseparable a year ago.  We had good memories, though, and I’ll always be thankful for that. So if you’re reading this, it’s not that I miss you, but I miss the good times we had.
I do still have my April. About a month and a half ago, she moved three hours away from home. We’ve always been friends – minus sophomore and most of junior years – and in 8th grade we knew we would be best friends forever.  She is my rock. She is everything to me and I love that I can to go to her for anything. I miss her.  I miss seeing her at Marc’s every time I worked.  We still talk though, every day – at least, I try. I love when she texts me to check up on me to make sure I’m okay.  She’s a wonderful lady; even if she doesn’t believe it sometimes.
The people I’ve met because of Carroll, well, they’re all wonderful people as well.  I can’t wait to move back into the dorm in a couple weeks.  I can’t wait to spend another year with Becca.  The biggest plus for this year is that we live on the Kappa Delta floor to live with my sisters. Plus, I have Eric (Becca’s boyfriend) who I can go to for anything.  He checks up on me once in a while too.  I got lucky when I met Becca.  I got a whole new family pretty much.
But we really need to talk about Marc’s.  I owe so much to that store.  The other day Sean’s brother, Adam, asked me why I liked working there so much.  I honestly answered with: Because while I have been there I’ve made so many great friends.  I got Sean and Ashley out of it. They were the first two people from that store that I could have considered really good friends.  Even after almost three years, I still go to Sean for anything and everything; he’s one of my best friends.  But in the last year, I have gotten closer to so many others.  There’s Stephanie, Steve, Sorina, Maddy, Jared, Mike, and Tylor.  (There are more, I’m sure, but these are the ones I know I would be happy to see when I get back at Christmas.) I know 100% that I will miss the aforementioned co-workers more than anything while I’m gone. Over the years, I’ve fallen in love with that store (every time I came home this past year, I was there at least once).  While so many people hate it, I can’t help but love it.  It’s not the best job, but it’s good enough for me.  I’ve met incredible people.  I love my managers too.  Dan is the only one who has been there the entire time I’ve been there.  However, I love Tony and Amanda too.  If they were to ever get transferred I would probably cry for days.  Last year at this time, I was turning in my two weeks and I wasn’t going to be working until Christmas.  This year I should be transferring to a store much closing to school, temporarily. I guess I love the company that much.  I’ll always love the 33PT the most though.
Now, to get off the Marc’s rant – I cannot believe that I’m about to start my sophomore year! I feel like I’m still fresh out of high school. How is this possible?  I have no idea how time went by so fast!  However, I’m excited to go back.  I’m excited to see Becca and Eric again.  I’m excited to see my KD sisters.  I’m excited to start class – so weird, I know, but I want to learn.  I have a feeling this semester might be rough with working at Marc’s – and every free moment will be spent studying – but I did this senior year and all nighters aren’t too bad.  I am also excited to see that gym – I am working out every morning.  I also intend on writing letters to everyone this year.  I like getting mail too, so ask me for mine and send me things.
I don’t really have much else to say.  I’ll be buying my books soon, like, the next couple of days. I’ll also be trying to figure out a budget for myself.  God knows I have no idea how to do that.  But I will not – hopefully – go crazy this semester.


I’ll try to post again before move in August 24.  But until the, stay classy and remember I’m Jackie and I don’t know crap.