Corona Chronicles (Vol1.Issue15)

Today I really tried to drill the to-do list concept into them.  But the problem is that they don't really read what I'm writing every day so like, fuck me, right? It's just like being in class... They don't listen to what I'm trying to tell them. And, I also tried to drill it into them by reminding them that we cannot control what is happening around us by using a quote from my John Carroll Speedbumps email. I still get them and I read theme very day... Idgaf if I've graduated twice and don't need them.  I love them.  And I do, in fact, need them.  

I felt it was a good quote to start with.  The other I&S teacher uses quotes to start most of his journal entries.  I don't want to do the same thing he's doing, but sometimes you just gotta start your journal entry with a damn quote that stands out to you and then reflect on it.  So maybe one kid connected with my journal today.  Who knows. 

Tuesday, April 7, 2020: 

“We cannot change the things that will happen to us.  But we can choose the attitude we will take toward anything that happens.” 
-Alfred A. Montapert-

    There are two emails I look forward to every morning.  The first is the email from the reality app I use to look at houses.  I love starting my morning looking at houses I probably won’t buy. It might be weird, but I’m looking for the perfect house and getting ideas from the homes for sale in Cleveland is a great place to start.  The second email is one that I still get from John Carroll every morning. Under normal circumstances, I would receive this email at 9 am sharp and it only has a quote in it to get your day started. Now it comes around 11 am and has a little bit more than just a quote, but I still only open it to see what kind of inspiration I can get from it.  Today’s quote is the one featured at the top of this entry.  

   It’s about things happening to us and how we react.  I felt it was perfect for today because we are living in a situation where things keep happening and we cannot change it.  Honestly, I hate not being in control. If I can prevent a change from happening I will do everything within reason to prevent it from happening.  But we’ve had a lot of change “happening” around us. We cannot change the situation we are in. We cannot force it to get better faster than nature is allowing.  But as Alfred says above, we can change the attitude we have about this.  

    We are living in a situation when we can look at what has been handed to us as an opportunity.  An opportunity to make the best out of what we have and what we can do. We might not love doing school from home, but we 100% can look at it as a chance to get ourselves organized and become better planners.  We can use this as an opportunity to ask for when we need it the most. We are all living in a new, strange world, and it is up to us to work on what we want to see come out of this situation. What can teachers do better when we go back to school? What can students be doing to make adjustments to work at their own pace and learn on their own terms? I said yesterday I work off a to-do list every day - that could be the first step to changing our attitudes towards what is happening. 
But I can only give you suggestions, ​​

This was by far the hardest entry to copy and paste into JDKC because I wanted the quote centered, but when you do that everything becomes centered so it became a whole thing to have three separate text boxes.  That's so irrelevant. But this is what I do to myself. 

It has taken a long time for me to wrap my head around this and adjust to the changes and understand what is happening.  I still don't know what's happen.  I don't know what's going to come still.  But I can't change what is happening.  I have to live with this.  I have to continue to make an attempt to be there for my students and work as hard as ever to support them in every possible way they might need. At this point it's getting very frustrating. I wish there was more I could do.  I wish this was easier on them.  I wish it was easier for me. But it never will be. 

But this is one of those situations where I just have to accept I just won't ever know - 

xo, jax