Can't Be Tamed

The past five years have been weird for me... At least when it comes to feeling something.  I am very emotional/have a lot of feelings.  I wear my feelings right on my face... but when it comes to another person I've only admitted to having feelings (to that person) twice.  I talk all the time about soul mates and not believing in love, but I've grown a little.  I believe in it - I just don't think it's me.  I don't love love.  I hate talking about my feelings and thinking about admitting how I feel to another person just makes me want to cringe...

For the most part I turn the other direction and run away from feelings when I start to sense things are becoming real.  Recently I've been on some dates and I really have the urge to run.  I'm not going to though because I should be an adult and see this thing through.  I also think it's time that I try to stick around a bit.  However, all of this has made me look deeper into myself.  I've been trying to figure out why I am the way I am and what "love" is, and the only way I truly know to figure that out is by writing. ​

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